190. Finish Writing Song

When I was a little girl one of the magics I discovered in this world was my father being able to write his own songs. I would sit with him and request for him to sing his original work over and over again. No, his writing never amounted to anything, you wouldn’t recognize his name and we most certainly never got rich from his hobby. But in truth I always felt as if I was behind the scenes; being filled in on the inner workings of a first addition of a great novel. In fact I loved it so much that when I was nine years old I decided that I could do it too. That writing was, indeed, my calling.

Oh those were the fun times. I never thought anything poor of my… “craft”. I wrote songs and poetry about any dramatic topic that would come to mind. And no… those drafts will never see the light of day. I loved it though and I believed in myself thoroughly. I was going to make it and be a famous song writer, poet, and maybe even an author. Yes, stories started to be written. Many, many drafts. Day and night putting my no. 2 pencil to paper and letting all of my creativity come cascading out.

Something odd happened though. No matter how much I wrote, how many stories I encored, poems I darkened or songs I began, I simply could not finish even one song. (There was that one song for my ex boyfriend… but that one doesn’t count because it was very short and very untrue, hardly a song at all.)

Alas, here we are today. I actually have completed this bucket list item a few times over in the years following that first song, but none will compare to that one. It was actually all thanks to my sister that I even completed, not one song but three. Two were dedicated to a crush she had 5 years ago. They were entitled “Dare Devil” and “Remember Me”. But, even though the third was supposed to be dedicated to him once again, it ended up being more so about shedding our vulnerabilities with the ones we love and everyone in society masking their imperfections. This song turned into my baby. It was a vulnerable piece. I will leave you now with the lyrics posted below.

Shadows

Written By: Taylor Jensen

written June 2018

Shadows, shadows

Everyone is hiding their

Shadows, Shadows

Gotta smile and show my light

My Darkness just isn’t right.

Is it safe here?

To take off the mask that I wear

To share all I can without fear

Can you love my shadows

Life is so hard

And this isn’t easy

I want to know

if you see me

Are you a prince

Or a villain in love

When will we both have enough of

Shadows, shadows

Everyone is hiding their

Shadows, Shadows

Gotta smile and show our light

Our darkness just isn’t right

Why are we scared to take off the masks that we wear

Why can’t we love without fear

Let’s move past our shadows

Life is made up of all the things

That don’t make sense to me

True love was a fantasy

Then you came crashing

Through the walls

Shadows, shadows

I am no longer hiding in shadows

I’m gonna show you my heart

So please take me into your arms

I will bring you

Love that is certain and sincere

It’s time to wipe away our tears

Let’s light up

Our shadows, shadows

Wrap me up in your shadows